Welcome to my world ....

things happen for a reason...

2010-02-09T07:50:00.000-08:00

I still didnt find out why did I feel the way I did yesterday. So frustrated, so stressed out and overruled by the vawe of emotions. Is it because I hate when I see that things can be done faster and easier then they actually are? Or is it because I am so unflexible to even a small change of my plans?
There is always a reason why things happen but I cant see it so far. Is the reason that I learn how frustrated it is to fix visa? how horrible one can feel in order to travel somewhere? is the reason that I should be happy that as an inhabitant of my country I dont need to go through this procedure (travels in Europe)? Is the reason for me that I managed to get up early in the morning, travel for 100km, found my way, travel back and work for some hours on the university paper? Or maybe it is not me who is supposed to learn from this. Or maybe I will see the reason later on.

the only person who can make you happy is you...

2010-01-12T10:41:00.000-08:00

the saying that I am trying to dig in head to take it always with me. but I am also trying to follow that saying. I am trying to find every day a thing (at least one) that makes me happy. Sometimes its hard sometimes not. for a creative person as I am it is cool cause every day it is something different that makes me happy. today it was talk with old friend of mine and her offer to do me a favour (I allowed myself to be happy about it even though nothing is fixed). very cool feeling. then it was that I bought the colorfull paper for my next creative hand made project (super much looking forward). then it was also the discovery that my gym visits already paid off and I feel much much better.

So did you make yourself happy today?

voting for the best behavior

2010-01-07T13:06:00.001-08:00

The other day I was in our supermarket to buy food.
I was standing half step and a bit right behind the person in front of me, calling (for 30 seconds or so). Right when I´ve finished the person on the cash was giving to the person in front of me the table that this cashier is closing I reached out my hand for that sign but the person in front of me put it on the belt (The woman who was with him told him to give me the sign but he explain himself that since I have full hands he will put it on the belt, nice gesture, no?). so we wait. When the time came to put my things on the belt the man at the desk (age round 20+) started to talk with me (well I dont consider this the proper way how to talk to the customer but ok).
This cash is closing.
OK but I was already here.
No, you werent
Excuse me I was. (the men in front of me admit, yes yes she was!)
Dear madam, i am not blind. you werent. You were not standing in the line, you were calling! said he with the such cheeky voice that I lost my words.
I just breath and consider what to do? at that point I could only hiss a bit and I just left to his colleague.

So I am asking what was the best behaviour to do? Start to argue that even the person I was standing BEHIND understood that I am queuing there?
Beeing rude, scream, throw things on him?
Go to his boss and tell that I felt very bad that I dont think I did something wrong and that I dont appreciate this kind of behaviour from their workers?
Leave my purchase there on the belt and leave?
Or just left dont say anything to him as I did?

Which choice would help to make a world better place?

The voting starts now !

So this was Christmas....

2010-01-04T13:54:00.001-08:00

So this is Christmas... John Lennon is singing in one of his hits. But I questioned myself Is this really Christmas? Shouldn´t it be about love, joy, harmony and peace? Why is someone giving me disrespect, pain and tears? (ok, it was me crying in the end) But why is someone doing that? I made an effort to end the starting fight, to postpone it for the next morning hoping to continue with “cold heads” but since it didn't work out I choose the other way. Actually it was the first time I ended up the fight the way I hate it. With cheesy ironic comment just to stop it because I decided (actually it was a bit pre-new year resolution) that I will make myself happy. And one way how to do it is to avoid such situation. No, don't think that I am running from the battle, it is more the strategy you use when you are allergic to some fruit. You don't eat it, don't smell it, don't buy it. And I will just avoid his presence, contact, company. I am not happy about this solution of the situation since I know it is not the right one. In the movie, you would talk, write a letter or became a famous pop start and made the coolest hit out of it just so the other person would know. The regrets and request of forgiveness would follow but I think my life is not such a movie.
I would really wish to understand the behaviour of others. What it is that makes them to behave the way they do. Maybe one day I will get to know that, maybe it is even more obvious than I´ve ever though but since then I will try to accept his bubbly personality and I will not allow him to stop me from being happy.

Everyone is fighting the best way one can

...?...

2009-11-21T11:41:00.000-08:00

Can The love be vanished by everyday problems?

How not to forget to celebrate the love everyday?

How to be satisfied even when you dont have everything you wanted?

wrong way

2009-10-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

When I used to play the Pc games where you have to drive a car I was very often going wrong way. Nowadays I have the feeling that my country is going this way and I am looking for a big sign saying “wrong way” that I could put in front of their faces.
Just two examples (I am not mentioning the economical “reforms”, the expected taxation level increasing or the next years state budget) that on the first glance not so significant situations but in my opinion dangerous in a principle:
1. In Slovakia you can buy bubble maker toy for boys and for girls... eeee why do we need to distinguish between sex/gender here??
2. In many countries (Balkan, Scandinavia) they don’t synchronize movies, series nothing. You can find it in the original language with subtitles. Perfect and cheap solution for people to learn language and for tourists too. (not ok for small children or for people who cant read or as my mother says for women who are cooking while listening TV). Not in Slovakia. We doubt everything (even from Czech) and we have the LAW that everything has to be in Slovak. Reason is to protect Slovak language...
(my ironic comments didnt go through here :D)

Compliment or something like that

2009-09-29T05:21:00.000-07:00

I met her yesterday after one year we havent seen each other.
She: "I almost didnt recognize you. You look so beautiful."
ehm :D

Photomarathon 2009

2009-09-20T00:12:00.000-07:00

Together with Lukas we took part at third Photomarathon in Bratislava and this is our contribution (unfortunately I didnt get the conditions right so I dont think we will win but stil we liked it :D all pictures you can see here

I just took one - my favourite called lucid dream :D

Active is educating workers at Slovak post

2009-09-10T00:55:00.000-07:00

I still hesitate if I should use the services of the ex "state" companies in Slovakia. I somehow still have feeling that I bother those people who are working there but on the other hand I usualy go there, because they are cheaper.
So I decided to send the new issue of the Transit via "old" Slovak Post. After the first experience I was somehow expecting that the miss working there will have some problems with the state Faroe Islands (but I can understand I also had it). So I went there and put an envelope in front of her.
She: I suggest to send it with First class otherwise it can take one month to ship it to Iceland
Me: Excuse me I want to send it to Faroe Islands not to Iceland
She: aha, sorry. So it will be uff 27 eur.
(just so you know, Slovak post has 3 country categories when it comes to prices- Czech republic, Europe and Other world and I somehow assumed that 27 euro is too much).
Me: Hm, sorry but Faroe islands are still in Europe.
She: Really? I never heard of it, then it is 13 euro.
Me (thinking, very ironicaly): ah that´s difference of "just"14 euro.

Why some people think that it is a shame to ask....

statement from lifestyle magazine

2009-09-03T14:29:00.000-07:00

.... everyone has the opportunity to change the world...

vivien westwood

leaving...

2009-08-24T02:27:00.000-07:00

There is a milion reason why I love Sweden.... but one in particular
I changed here... in a good way

thanks to everyone who made it possible...

thoughts on the way to prekistolen

2009-08-22T12:48:00.000-07:00

- Do not hurry to your goal you might miss something on the way. The way itself is important.

- the easier looking way might not be that easy in the end

- do not follow others even though they look like they know what they are doing

- the biggest stone isn´t necessary the most stabile
- the same way doesn´t mean the same experience

- the more tougher way to the goal, the more you appreciate the goal

- don´t let others to set your tempo

- sometimes the stone on your way have other purpose than to stop you

the taste of love

2009-08-22T12:43:00.001-07:00

Q: What is the best thing on this vacation?
Him: In my opinion the best and most beautiful thing on this place is the crunchy bottom of my girlfriend :D

chuchu

my head - the Qstion maker...

2009-08-20T01:25:00.000-07:00

You had certain experience and when your friends face the same situation you want to protect them. But is it really the same situation?
Is it neccesary for them to fall in order to find out?
But how can anyone be sure it will have the same pattern? and that s/he is right?
How to achieve equality in a relationship? When it is about big love and when about owning someone?
Can you have your own time and dont feel ditching on her/him?
How much support should one partner give to another?
What everything you can tolerate and accept?
Is there an equal attention to partners needs and wills all the time... or ...ever?
Can the partners rise while supporting the other partner?

lets see what Paoblo Coelho has to say to this :D

thankfull...for a change :D

2009-08-16T13:50:00.000-07:00

I am thankfull

Thankfull for my family that they are willing to carry my 14kg bag, be awake at 2 a.m. just to help me and my friends
I am thankfull to my friends who behave like I had never gone and miss me !
I am thankfull for my boss who gives me fewers to my wings and let me learn much more than I have expected.
I am thankfull to my bf for being tolerant - to my work, passion, moods and every side of myself.
I am thankfull for the tears of joy and sadness that went through my face.
I am thankfull for the wonderfull moments that I´ve gone through in the past year!

missing...

2009-07-28T04:27:00.000-07:00

his fingers, smile and smell
the common minutes we spend
missing the part of me when we´re together
missing...

myself in Content matters

2009-07-10T02:40:00.000-07:00

I contributed, finally.
After 3 month of the campaing I decided to send my story. Content matters campaing is cool it has the aim to show the other side of alcohol. I would never think that writing a story that i hide for such a long time in my heart can bring so much emotion and also lighteness.

I do believe everyone of us has something to say to this topic- so share!

Cause I believe that there is at least one person whom your contribution will help - at least yourself.

Can youth contribute to "adult" topics?

2009-07-06T01:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I ask myself this question too.
My first intention is to scream YES of course. Youth is the future. Youth is the hope.
But does youth have enough space in society, in every day life? Do we show them enough patience to learn and by that show us what are they capable to do?
Youth needs to want to participate in everyday life.
But then I start to hesitate - do they really want to? I worked with group of youth that consider themselves not educated/clever enough to have the right to vote. They are not interested in politics and they really believe they are JUST youth. I am hitting the bells and screaming WAKE UP! Adults, youth is the part of society - the inspirative and powerfull part.
For all those who dont believe I have a proof.
I took part on a conference - "Get to know your finances".
Conference where secondary schools girls and boys took part, contributes along with their teachers and professionals. They were talking about money, savings, how to solve the pensions funds. In the age of 17! That was amazing. And I can really tell that they know what they were talking about. And it prooved that definitely youth belongs to the society.
No one should ever question that.
just give wind to their wings and they will fly!

please follow my inspiration...

2009-06-21T10:05:00.000-07:00

I wrote it already some times here how much I admire Kristinka. And once again she found her way to start my mind working. Her almost latest entry (read here). And she is right. Parent´s attitude towards alcohol is part of the attitude that their children are "building". By their children I also mean yours!

Parents should never offer alcohol to children. They should create alcohol free home for them. Think about it if you will next time offer alcohol to anyone. Think about how s/he can feel.

Later today her entry started very nice conversation with my sweetest boyfriend. And it lead to the question What is worse - alcohol or drugs. And there the moment happend. Eventhough I am in the sober movement for 8 years. The first intention for my was to answer drugs. But are they really? When an abstinent (former alcoholic) fought his/her addiction is it easy for him to re-join the society? Society with all the ads in TV, all the alcohol in shops and bars. All the alcohol on parties etc. etc. etc.?

So what is really more dangerous?

And off the topic I made fullkorn hallon pancakes at the end.

...dream come true..?..

2009-06-01T14:26:00.000-07:00

Few months ago my lovely kiksun had a question on her blog. What should u do when all your dreams come true? And now I am thinking about the same - what should I do when I found someone I was looking for?
someone who respects me, who turns his life up side down just to be with me and by that he managed to turn mine...
Someone who loves ME for my flaws (as Beyoncee is singing).
Someone who is helping me and forcing at the sametime to challange myslef and do things I was afraid to do.
Someone who is making me a better person because I wanna him to be proud of me.
Someone who is making me cry because I cant believe that I am having such him.
Someone who is everything I´ve ever wanted...and I mean everything..

Somene like him.. NO... exactly him.

I can come...that made me smile...

2009-05-30T11:50:00.000-07:00

active participation....
words that are repeating in every application form:D
words that can discribed today.

My lovely organization -NOM made the second Beer buying campaign today. We went to shop for mystery buying u can call it - minors tried to buy alcohol... unfortunately they succed. 13 times out of 13 shops. Buying spirits withou any troubles... c r a z y...we have to stop it.

then we were just sitting around, chilling out.. wii...fun...
Tibor, manager for CVC, came to chill out with us. He asked Patrik (partially working for them) if he wants to join tomorrows event. Yes I do.
And the magic of active participation happend. Mirko, 17 years, asked if u want to I can come too. I can come anytime I dont have to do anything else. Isnt it magic? In this times when u can watch hundrets of chanels on TV, surf the web, hang out with your family or friends and he decides to go and help to make a nice day for someone else.

I am prooud that I know such people
I am proud that such people still ARE!

Thumbs up for everyone who are making the change!

what made me laught

2009-05-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

this picture... because of the memories and Sanjas eyes

the joke from the movie The Guru
... do you know any Indian who is famous in the "movie" industry?
...that guy from Simpsons...
:D

and also my brother cause he is willing to help me...
the strategy not expecting anything from anyone really makes you very happy from time to time...

sun in sweden...

2009-05-12T00:44:00.000-07:00

U know Sweden is a bit more north...
and the sunny hours are a bit different than those in Slovakia, I know this NOW

I didnt "use" the curtains last night...so now I also know that 5:25 is already sun like it use to be at 8.00 a.m in my home country...

noted down :D

rain in Sweden

2009-05-10T02:16:00.000-07:00

why does it always rain on me...

is it because i bike when it was raiiiiiiining... :D

parents visit in Orebro

2009-05-06T13:24:00.000-07:00

...almost like a family

Idea that made my day...

2009-04-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

I was looking in to the windows to see what is new in the world - yeah I am talking about the endless source of information - internet now.
and i found this article.
And I am amazed how simple some things can be. They created "social shops" where the only buyers can be people with not sufficient incomes - students, retired people, mothers etc. They have to register in order get the "permission" to shop here (they have to prove thei low income). And the third condition is to spent maximum 30 euro per week.
A bit tricky thing is that the products sold here are delivered from supermarkets for free (this is still not the tricky part) adn the products are few days before expiration date or right after it - but they claim all the products are safe (I really wanna hope so).
So the super rich supermarkets send the damage, almost too old products to be sold to poor people. Both way sufficient!
And it really reminds me on the Active´s campaign Human rights for all, clothes for all - where the aim is to send the old promo T-Shirts to people in need - to orphans home etc.

Sometimes to help people IS not that expensive - do you have garden? do you REALLY eat all of the apples and potatoes that you grow? Don´t you think there are people in your environment who couldn´t afford to have this every day? Share!
I know it won´t pay their bills or learn them to read but they can use things you won´t!
Things you throw away can save their lives!

Don´t throw away - recycle - everything - food especially!

to je aka haluska?

2009-04-27T13:41:00.000-07:00

I lost the bet, cause there was snow in Sarajevo during the Active seminar in the beginning of march. So I made halusky today. With the real bryndza.

And I tell you what! It is so cool to have friends who appreciate it!

thanks girls

very welcome next time too!

thank full...

2009-04-22T14:03:00.000-07:00

I am thankfull..again... for my friends.
They are so amazing - young beautiful girls, smart, succesfull but still with their feet on the ground. They can laugh, share and help. I was sitting in fast food and was proud of them. Proud that they are my friends. You cant choose family but you can choose friends. And I am thankfull that the four of us are friends.
I am also very thankfull that they are looking forward to meet me and are sad that Iam leaving again.
I am thankfull.

I am also thankfull that I found him. I know it can be a bit boring to listen to someone in love talking but at least I am sharing my happines, so be prepared to read more:D. I am thankfull for all the words he´s giving me, for all the love I feel from him, for all the moments we share... but still afraid that it wont last...

springish

2009-04-05T04:49:00.000-07:00

Spring is in the air

Everywhere I look around

Spring is in the air

Every sight and every sound

Spring in Orebro ... smelly...warm.. full of sun... bicycles..joy and love

NOM Congress 2009

2009-03-27T08:51:00.000-07:00

NOM Congress
17. - 19.4.2009

Various amazing activities, workshops, talks, summary of 2009, planning
Meeting friends, fun, learning, feeling of belonging, SOBRIETY, changing the world!

Join us
´cause Sobriety is IN!

EVS midterm

2009-03-25T11:06:00.000-07:00

It was cool

to see Stockholm again,
to meet other volunteers,
to present our work, to talk till 3 a.m.,
to have fika every 1,5 hours,
to find out that I have very much common with a person I havent though I might have,
to discover yourself due to some strange outdoor activities

...some thoughts...

Why was I chosen for my EVS?

We want to integrate the XXX minority into the swedish society with creating activities only for XXX minority = not including Swedes at all..??...

I have a diseas... 3 years ago I didn´t think I will be able to live without my parents.. and now I am living in totaly strange country

How do I change the people and the environment around me? How am I changing?

You must make yourself happy

special place for the fridge magnets...

2009-03-10T01:20:00.000-07:00

she left...

2009-03-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

my friend...
after 2 years we spent together more days than we did during those 2 years
and it was awesome... common history, stories, humor, music taste (almost) new wounds and loves...

missing her very much !

thanks gabs :D

me, her and a new cap

2009-03-06T07:40:00.000-08:00

facing my feellings, will and needs
facing past, myself, future and reality
with her and pair of needles in hands...

happy, safe, energy`s comming back...

Eurovision in Slovakia

2009-03-04T00:18:00.000-08:00

Since living in Sweden I got used to some things - snow, sweet bread, salty candies and Eurovision.
Slovakia is there !
For me Eurovision is cool, cause it brings the whole Europe (including Turkey) together! I even heard that the Balkan countries are supporting their neighbour´s singer.
I don´t like the fact that most people give points to their neighbouring countries not to the song their like, but thats the naive part of me :D
But the question is how can you compare two songs?
Is it about who had the best lyrics? Who sings higher/deeper? Who has the most beautiful dancer? How will I/you choose the best song?

The slovak winner is VERY nice song (Pociskova and Mikulcik) - slowly, beautifly. One can get shiver from that. BTW this is song is sung by 2 actors (a bit ironic, no?:)
But my favourite song is this one from Hudba z marsu - they included typical Slovak folk music, I always liked this combination :D

For me Eurovision is the international or at least European day of music! So lets enjoy it..together

Boy, R U tough enough? Prove it! Wear pink

2009-03-04T00:09:00.000-08:00

Colors don´t have gender - pink is not only for girls, blue is not only for boys.
Let´s start the equality revolution - boys wear pink !

let´s facebook reality

2009-03-02T14:00:00.000-08:00

A chock can be only kicked off by another chock
old slovak saying, applied mostly on the love issues recently.
But how this chock (the new one) can handle it?
isn´t it too mean and harmfull for him/her?
shouldn´t s/he know that s/he has just this role in the life of the other?
wouldn´t it be easier to have next to your heart a status like you can have on facebook?
in relationship, too single... need a chock
wouldn´t it be fair towards others?

but life is not about being easy or fair...

sometimes things are not that difficult as they look like

2009-03-01T02:15:00.000-08:00

i found this out on some of the trainings with fitball.
yesterday in TV there was 20 years old girl who used to drink beer everyday. Then she sing up for sme kind of reality show where after 5 weeks they will made her a Rumba dancer. And she has to stop drink beer for those 5 weeks.
For her an amazing act... for me reality, nothing tough.

yeah sometimes things are not that difficult as they look like

outside the box...on my wall

2009-02-21T08:57:00.000-08:00

its new
its big
its shiny
it reflects myself

and maybe it is magical and one can see the true face of him/herself

my new mirror
is outside the box, is on my wall....

5 reasons why do you have to love Norwegians

2009-02-18T03:39:00.000-08:00

- they can dance - the craziest and funniest dances u can´t think of
- they can speak english - all of them
- they don´t care what others think about their appearance
- open - mindness
- Juvente skolan - yeah it rocked my world. Over 100 youth - sober !
talking about future projects, enjoying youth from other end of Europe, having fun, perform just to share their skills, huging, cleaning and having disco...jumping having fun.. S O B E R (erdu), playing theater and give standing ovation, appretiate anything you do for them.... seeing that even 10 years age difference doesn´t mean a lack of understanding or having fun...
Yeah they rock - even though they eat a lot of bread and have cold... the cold ... the -16 cold

juvente - join them www.juvente.no

a cork wanted...

2009-02-05T03:52:00.001-08:00

you know that feelling when you come to the decision that it is finally over ( with him) and you deleted his name from your mobile/friend list/whatever.
and the next day you dont see his name in your list
and you feel this strange hole inside you..its big, black and empty...
and you try to to fill it with friends, sport, hobbies, tons of ice cream, new hair cut, movies, songs, new home...
and it works, the hole is getting a bit more full but still the final cork is missing

and by you I mean myself...

cleaning

2009-01-26T01:08:00.001-08:00

I cleaned
my kitchen
apartment
desktop of my notebook
thoughts
mind
heart

breathing till my lungs hurt

finally...

2009-01-23T00:45:00.000-08:00

after 2 weeks of hinding in my apartment I manage to finish some-thing(s)
* move the shelf so I have space for my mirror
* get my bike repair
* check for svenskakursen
* attend aerobic class
* finish my first novel/first chapter

but still missing some-thing to be done....

for those who don´t believe one can make a change

2009-01-11T13:49:00.000-08:00

There are people who dont believe one person can change the world. I do believe. And I do believe I am also changing world...at least someones.

f.e. i showed this year to 2 girls ..two friends that they can spent new years eve without alcohol and have awensome fun.

f.e. being myself and doing what I am doing I am inspiration for someone how one can be active, (I dont know what would they say if they would know Kiksun).

f.e. and my sis almost made me cry when she said that becuase of us she is a better person that and she really helped 2 people what she wouldnt do before...

At that time i got the next best xmas present...

absolut cool new years eve !..............thx

Xmas 2008

2009-01-11T09:08:00.000-08:00

Christmas should not be about present ... so they say.. but I do mostly looking forward to christmas because of the presents (given and gotten)... and food...and TV programms...and nuts..
This year it was special, I got nice presents, if Iwould not be afraid I would say the nicest.
I got camera so I can take pictures of my other presents
I got cup because the giver knew how I love it
I got place to put pictures in so I feel at home more like at home
I got CD and the nicest words which I can read whenever I need them again and again...

I got lights in the shape of teddy bears - na na na na nan an na :D

I also got many other presents ..appreciate them the same way!

and I also got the opportunity to prepare nice presents for my friends.

i could pack something I know someone likes in 4 different ways and I was absolutely proud about that.

and I also prepared calendar for my sis. To each weak I wrote nice quotations, jokes, things she should do, I even invented a small story about blue Erni...and at the end of the year there are some questions so she can evaluate the previous year... I am so proud!

..aha and Sis liked it ! :D

Story about tomten

2008-12-20T00:22:00.000-08:00

Once upon the time, there were people who had magical skills. They can heal the (homesick) pain, they can heat heart when it is cold, they can make you smile when you think you can´t. They can make you feel home even though you are thousands kilometers away...

and this people on a annual meeting decided that they will share with their abilities with others. After tough brainstorming they came to idea to make a small tomten...how much joy you can have and make by sharing...

so I am sharing with you also

merry christmas...

strange but homesick...

2008-12-10T05:09:00.000-08:00

yeah ,... I miss my friends.. it was so nice walking with them around x-mas market in Bratislava. talking laughing drinking Kofola, mumsi...
but then I need to pack and leave eventhoug in some days i´ll be back.. homesick
but my new glittering pens are my gooood company.

They are reconstructing the in line road in Petrzalka, can´t wait to try it.

looking fwd to New years Eve, eventhough no NOM seminar is going to happend but I hope at least some people will join...
so far katka majka Rocco, zeler zuzka.. IMT Smile :D

and officially I am now a volunteer.
nice feeling... you should try it too :D

femton fodelsedag....

2008-12-07T13:56:00.000-08:00

Drahá naša mamička,

zostarla si trošička.

Tvár ti zdobia vrásky,

zo starostí z tvojej lásky.

Pri oslave tvojho jubilea,

zišlo sa tu ľudí veľa

Rodičia, manžel aj deti

50 sviečok an stole svieti.

Pri ich svetle chceme priať

nech dlhý, šťastný život budeš mať.

Kopu zdravia, šťastia tiež,

a ešte všetko, čo len chceš.

Happy birthday mami....

Slov-ak-ia

2008-12-03T00:12:00.001-08:00

ooo I have friends here, after I turn on my mobile after landing in Bratislava airport, I got sms, phone calls, where are you, when can we meet? Yeah my friends want to see me eventhough I am not living in this country... but still they find time t meet me.
thank you...

It was also nice to sleep in my apartmen again, fighting with Majka moving our cosmetics and pillows and laughing because she is funnyyyyyy :D
It is also nice not to hurry for a change to go somewhere just enjoying Bratislava for some days. looking forward to christmas market, kofola, soup, long calls with my mother:D

BTW it is nice to wake up at 8 a.m. and there is sun !!! Actually also now there is sun ...what a change :DDD

new years Eve 08/09

2008-11-24T10:17:00.000-08:00

Yeah we found place!

already me and one person singed in !

New Years Eve in Slovakia, no international guests :( but still cool topic...

how to change the world.... fight alcohol...lets get active !

very welcome ...

winter is here

2008-11-20T04:19:00.000-08:00

yeah winter is here...
I am wearing tights under jeans ... gloves... and socks inside the house, days are shorter...
I also manage to fell down on ice today...

yeah winteer is here :D

14.11.2008

2008-11-18T11:42:00.000-08:00

I have friends...good ones... best ones

I have friends who send me messages even though I am 2000 km aways and we didn´t talk for 4 month
I have friends who fly those 2000km just to be with me and have small vacations. They bring me gifts and spend with me
I have friends who give me comics so I can learn swedish and made me my own Kladkaka.
I have friends who made me a hat!!!, bought DVD, print pictures, prepared me a tiramisu !!, cause they like me and they want me to feel special
I have friends who are sad when I left the city at my birthday ...wrote me funny messages...paint picture ...prepare surprise.. actually no one every prepared a surprise party for me.
I have friends who call me and sing at my birthday, wish me all the best and are happy that they can prepare small sursprise for me.

I have friends
I love them
I am very thankfull to them

my best B day ...!

too soon for conclusions...

2008-11-18T01:07:00.000-08:00

end of my dream
end of my movie
where would you run
...directly to me

all those small lies
telling to myself
it hasn´t been wise
believing with no evidence

take all your things
story and broken wings
open the door
and let the fresh air in..

Oslo trip...got more that I expected 2

2008-11-13T07:13:00.000-08:00

just small foot note to the previous entry...

My expectation to this trip were mostly talk with old friends and sightseeing in Oslo. But suddenly I realized that we talked much about Active, Juvente Norway kamaratstöd and all this stuff that made me think even harder... gave me inspiration and energy.

Now the question is how to use it and be special/better volunteer/person then the previous one?

best love song ...thx Sance

2008-11-12T14:44:00.000-08:00

Kate Nash - nicest thing... no more words needed

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.
I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.
I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three.
I wish that without me your heart would break,
Yea, I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
Yea, I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.
Look,All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish we could see if we could be somethingYea,
I wish we could see if we could be something

Oslo trip...got more that I expected

2008-11-12T01:15:00.000-08:00

5 hour in bus and you are in Oslo (but the bus has to move, not just stand on the parking :).
feeling unconfortable with all the people around..not used to it anymore... jumping on my floor bed...just happy... feeling like staring at hip hop movie...laught at the carrot performance...amazed how two people can fit each other, like two puzzle pieces... seeing two friends who met after long long time...

Sitting in the apartment with two bosnians, eating their moussaka, singing macedonian songs, talking about war, life down there. Comparing with mine.
Thanks to Active/EVS I can visit almost whole Europe... remembering my summer when one week I decide to go to Spain and I went. No visa, no permission, just cheap R. ticket.
during the war, there were times when we didnt have even water...
I felt respect cause those *western* people should know more...
feeling kind of guilty for all the possibilities I have and I am not using them, not appretiate them. How to include more modesty in my life?

talking about kamaratstöd, hvit jul
When my mom drinks and fell asleep at sofa I have to blow out the candels so our house don´t burn down... Andreas 7 years old
...feeling desperate, upset...every one ...EVERY child should feel peace and joy (not only) at christmas!! now I know what I will wish for christmas... a change...at least for someone..

ACTIVE rocks ... once again

2008-11-05T02:49:00.001-08:00

too many impression from the last Active seminar are rolling in my head and heart but I will try to sumarized them very soon...
so far I am
happy
i n s p i r e d
amazed
s a t i s f i e d

feeling that A c t i v e r o c k s ! ! !

sakna sverige...

2008-11-02T14:00:00.000-08:00

reading blog of my friend/boss :D increased my sweden-sickness ..
can´t wait to see mina vänner again....
I am comming soon!!!!

short one

2008-10-18T16:43:00.000-07:00

I am feeling happy...incredible happy...
because of the work...people around..friends...
because of that I have so many news that even after 2 days talking still didn told them all...
because of the mood... luck...solved problems..good news.. pictures..bought tickets - bus&plane
because of the weather...finding the tiger...coming party...
because of her...her and her...
because of h i m ...

h a p p y.. :D

approved

2008-10-17T00:56:00.000-07:00

I will stay in Sweden till august...

many new perspective are now opening for me...Albania camp, travelling, learning swedish... what a nice time is in front of me...

can´t wait...

jag gillar min livet i Sverige...

When I first missed you...

2008-10-13T14:37:00.000-07:00

I was together with you 4 years, honestly 3 years and 9 months but it took me three month to tell you the final adios ...
first I really missed you one month after the break up when I felt so happy... you know the feeling when I have one song stuck in my head walking, singing, smiling, feel like dancing in the middle of cross road, like I could hug the whole word and I know you loved me when I was like that....and then I found out that I can´t dial your number and ask you out so we can stare together at my new shoes, I can´t send you mms with the picture of the nicest shoes I have ever had, so I just stare at the phone and then I put it back to the pocket and sing the song alone...
second time I missed you when my world started to turn other way around, all of a sudden. i felt like everyone got crazy and i could see only the devilly dark parts of everything. at that time I needed your hug so desperetly, just to have you as the only stabile point in my world...
third time I missed you when I moved to new apartment with the hug bed and I realized that it would be so cool to have you here to heat my feet...
fourth time I missed you when I was seeing some of the stupid comedies you used to like and you used to laught..omg how you could laught... loudly, happily till you lost your breath...
fifth time I missed you when you told me the story about your new girlfriend..i am happy for you but still...you are not mine anymore...
sixth time I missed you when I realized that this words will never reach you... and maybe I want them to..

true friend

2008-10-09T14:31:00.000-07:00

a definition of a friend:
friend is someone who writes you sms in the middle of the night because there is a movie with you favourite actor in TV...

Emina you rock !!

swedish children book

2008-10-09T10:36:00.000-07:00

yesterday we (me and Eminka) managed to fix something without swedish speaking person with us, not that this is a big problem here in Sweden since everyone, e v e r y o n e, at least understand english. It´s just somehow we always are around someone who can translate it for us.
Eller hur :D yesterday I was at the most beautiful library. Big.. light ..nice smelling ..very close to our home... the registration card has the Orebro castle on the front... for free...
this country still amazes me..
so I borowed a book.. start to read.. wrote every second word on a paper so I can check it in dictionary. But I couldn´t find almost half of it ...
so I checked if I am searching for it in swedish part..
yes I did...
then I started to think this book is in norwegian ..
but there was no O like they usually have.. so it was in swedish ...
so far too complicated book. I would go for lower level - easier book but they are those only with pictures ...
for the curious ones Moa manage to buy new magisk dress and started to attend school :D How this will continue... :D

So you are out..

2008-10-07T00:52:00.000-07:00

out off the door
out off the game
...stil in my head.. in my heart...

prep team meeting

2008-10-07T00:25:00.000-07:00

Örebro 26 - 29.10.2008 prep team meeting for the Active seminar in Czech

cool weather, cool people, cool cooperation, cool planning, cool milshake, know all sing star songs (at that time) ...

I am very satisfied how the team is working, what program we prepared..can´t wait for participants how they gonna like it...

can´t wait for opinion of our new member in NOM, can´t wait for the opinion/feelings of EVS from Danmark

l o o k i n g f o r w a r d ....

18 days left

for once...

2008-10-07T00:21:00.000-07:00

i am FED UP
being funny..... part of the gang..
... being COOL...

For once I wanna be the prettiest, the most beautiful.. love at first sign
For once I wanna be the breathaway-taker, the perfect, the best
For once I wanna mean the world...

for once...for one...for him...

E V S power

2008-09-23T12:35:00.000-07:00

and now we are all....
the three muscetiers....three different volunteers sharing the same values, aim, building and office..

Emina..............
VeryMary....... power
Saska.............

glad that we can rock together....now in Stockholm

jag är glad!!!

sweden ...8th day

2008-09-19T04:27:00.001-07:00

so I am here

having nice apartment with big bed, view at the ICA store where I usually buy those soft candies..love them!!, TV where I can watch all series in english... I love sweden for that.., friends around!! Mari such a sweet heart full of energy
Emina who is finally on her way to us, kika and mike who are so nice and we have fun together, dante, burken and his hi fi flat:D, and all the others...

learning to bike again, putting the bottom of my throusers to socks, recycle, enjoying food in swedish restaurants!!! really much

love the time here, love my work, next weeks seems very busy, love that feeling too

miss my slovak friends a bit ...yeah happy :D

goodbye party ...done

2008-09-06T07:20:00.000-07:00

30 coctails
13 friends
2 broke baloons
pictionary
10 koko nuts
many ...many.... gifts
1 new pub in center
one hour in my favourite disko
2 flying tickets bought

many memories...feeling nostalgic

T H A N K S .......

invitation....

2008-09-02T01:08:00.001-07:00

I know it is small...just klick on it :D

you are very welcome !!

my little joy

2008-08-28T14:08:00.000-07:00

I prepare a present for one my friend.

I am going to give him something what really means to me a lot, small poem and special rock dizajn wrapping - black paper and glittering ribbon...

hope he will enjoy...

so I have it ...

2008-08-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

....the fly ticket to Sweden

leaving in 13 days
gosh it is really here :/

feeling kind of nostalgic but incredible happy

another 20km on my skates

2008-08-25T14:37:00.001-07:00

yes I did roller-skate today too.

I met 2 nice couples one pair of women in age of 50 who skated too. you know elder people usually have this dry skin, as when the apple is too fully-grown, so imagine such 2 women in nice fashionable sport clothes ..amazing!!

and then I saw a couple he long grey hairs, both wearing jeans, skating, him dancing on skate, her laughing and singing... Once I want to marry such guy who even on that age can skate, and made me laugh.

and yes still the relationship question is here :(
a lot of news ... NO decision taken

What is right and what is good..and what the **** I want? :D

2008-08-17T14:19:00.000-07:00

I am solving just partner/relationship problems these days... mine..hers.. his.. theirs :D

be careful maybe it is epidemic :D

I am wishing to all (me including) patient and good luck with your decision....
.........wondering how this will end.........

but one of my dreams became truth yesterday:D
oo what a mysterious end....:D

time for camp evaluation

2008-08-15T13:42:00.000-07:00

it is so hard to evaluate such a big experience as was this active summer camp 2008.
I will just mention few moments I like the most
I liked
1) to meet my old friends.. to hug them talk to them invited them for a piece of fish that my co-slovak-mates prepared.. to recognize Rasmus with the strange bear
2) the active congress even though I was disappointed how less we discussed
3) scouts!!!! very much... from this point of view it was the best experience in my life!!! thanks!!
4) swedish not so dark night, sweating in the morning tent, sleeping in tent when my drying clothes get wet again from the Swedish rain..how my cosmetics got warm in the tent
5) Katka !!!! for everything ..for every minute we laughed, talked, cooked or slept together :D
6) slovak group !!! for the tent circle and the energy you produced there
7) paul and poi.. he can poi with his eyes closed, you should have seen that :D
8) group hugging night..I am cold aaaaa group huuug .... but my hands are still cold:D
9)canoe trip for the silence, beauty and company
10) jimmy fire show !!!! amazing jimmy!!
11) the last evening for the possibility to give at least clapping thanks to the camp team
12) cleaning afterwards, the cakes, ice-cream, spacobels, slovak group...
13) home for my bed and also because I know I will be back in sweden soon

saying from Kung fu panda...

2008-08-15T03:05:00.000-07:00

yesterday is history
tomorrow is a mystery
but today is a gift
that is why it is call the present

the best SMS

2008-08-13T02:05:00.000-07:00

we confirm you that you have 2 reserved tickets for the movie wall.e

t o m o r r o w

:D

BTW is it just a coincidence that I will see him 3 month before my birthday?? :D

I found a poem

2008-08-09T04:30:00.000-07:00

wanna U to stop the rain
cause today I like my hair
wanna U to walk along
feeling love, makes me strong
wanna U to heat my feet
huging me while I´m asleep

Wanna U to take me out
also on the movie U don´t like
wanna kiss U anytime
whoever will see I don´t mind
wanna U to let me do
everything that makes me blue
wanna U not to brake
when I am happy from a fake

wanna another you...

magic jacket...made me invisible:D

2008-07-18T13:51:00.000-07:00

waiting for katka
standing 50m far from her. waving....going straight to her.... standing 30cm far from her she didnt see me...
its because I wear my magic WHITE!! jacket (I had the feeling I look like a doctor)

Explanation: I have just few white things- my new best shoes ever, 1 bra, 1 pants, 2 Tshirt I havent wear for 2 years:D

wall.e with new name :D

2008-07-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

you know there is a movie WALL.E which I can´t wait to see. everytime I am going to cinema and see the advertisement I scream cause wall.e rocks !
and my little sis manage to call him voli :D oooo its so funny :DDD
wall.e = voli

:)

like you sis... hug:D

new at my list

2008-07-09T23:44:00.000-07:00

yeah..
I admit... there are days when I think about my future husband.. what features, skills, abilities (color eyes etc :) he should have.
Very slowly I am preparing a list of these things...
and now I found a new one....
you always hear it in this romantic movies ..I wanna man who will give me wings.. actually I feel having quite big wings I will just appreciate someone who will be my wind in those wings. who will be the snowflake which starts my snow-slip. My second atom with which I connect and together we will produce huge bunch of energy. Someone by whose side I will make things better, bigger, greater...

someone like him.... :D

my inspiration

2008-07-09T04:03:00.000-07:00

remembering yesterday
wanna feel the same way today
you inspirited all my cells
they jumped, wanna dance
with u my run
turned to flight
space trip at daylight
thx can´t w8

mjuuusssiiiiikkkk

2008-07-08T00:48:00.001-07:00

yeah my addiction to music is really big huge spectacular :D
first time I heard I kissed a girl from Katy Perry ooo I liked it...
then I found this cover... I love covers.. and this man rocks !!

can´t wait till I will manage make my own cover on flute :DD

flute n roll??? :D

romantic moment

2008-07-07T07:58:00.000-07:00

did you ever notice how similar are words

w i f e ... and
l i f e

just a coincidence? :D

my weekend observation

2008-07-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

I saw 2 people living with each other ...but they are actually living next to each other...two parallel lifes on the same address.. they don´t care any longer about feelings, needs and wants of the other. They even don´t care if what they do or say will hurt the other person...sometimes they even do it on purpose as pay back of previous wounds.
In cases like this I really wish to have magic mirror to show them what they are doing and tell them either to change their attitudes or address....

...confirmed....

2008-07-04T03:57:00.000-07:00

I am going to Sweden for at least 3 months !!!!

I can start packing... :D

HURAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

did you hear me??

I AM GOING TO SWEDEN!!

ooo Active rocks!!

thx :D

after broke up humor

2008-07-03T13:49:00.000-07:00

On: cizeee nemusim prist..
Ona: nemusis? ale ty uz nic nemusis....
On: ale myslel som to tak, ze teraz nie si volna
Ona: ale ja som volna stale
On: ale za to si mozes sama :D

TOP..Top topfest

2008-06-29T12:52:00.000-07:00

môj prvý fest
bol fakt the best
deň začínal skoro
vybaviť vecí mnoho
nájsť správny bus
nech môžem ujsť
od reality veľký kus

Forkina rodina
domček a mesto
výlet mi začína
nabíja jak bleskom

kriky, skoky a pogy
z Em sa po-hlavná sestra zrodí
2 dni ešte hlava bolí

dážď zmýva posledné starosti
stojím pod pódiom radosti
Lazky skáče, rýmuje
moja duša ho fakt miluje
dav ho nesie nad hlavou
dotýkam sa ho rukou

na puding prišla rada
eastie boys mám fakt rada
ďalší úder do hlavy
s Tuturkom dance vynahradí

Blatové boty a nohy
sprcha sa vážne hodí

2bratia, fotela
budíček nášho hotela
pokračuje maratón
prekračujem ľudí na mol

mig 21 robili show
spevácke výkony hercov
Ska prúdi z polemicu
náladička nemá chybu
horkýže crazy rules
nepridať sa ani neskús

kabát a ohňostroj nad nami
nevinný flirt s Trenčanmi
súkromná pog party
zóna a jeho pohyby
šialenec - nemá chyby

koniec rock víkendu
spomienky neblednú
kám trvá svalový bôľ
najlepší víkend môj

Ďakujem Forka za nápad
šampón, víkend a tvoj hrad,
dúfam, že to nebolo poslednýkrát

Idea for the best souvenir T shirt from BCN

2008-06-25T01:40:00.001-07:00

In Spain the people may be running from bulls, but the bulls are running from Chuck Norris

:D

I love my yesterday..

2008-06-24T06:02:00.000-07:00

cause I manage ....to drive 70km, going by train 70 km... roller skate 20 km... :) talk with magistrate of Sala, meet my new friend...
I like the feeling of responsibility and the happy smile after you finished something...
ooo I would appreciate to have work where I should travel...

and I sign the claim as Ing. Alexandra :D

and when they called they were titling me Ing... very funny to me :D but I felt that they took me more seriously :D

my little victory

2008-06-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

after they will give me MY diploma we will have nice lunch with my family. And I manage to force my parents to have nonalcoholic toast...

my little victory... :)

1.7.2008

BCN V... MDD

2008-06-22T14:35:00.000-07:00

autobusík teplý, malý
veľa sme sa nevyspali
a v Madride na stanici
vyzeráme ako po opici
preto trháme obočie, maľujeme oči
nejeden pohľad k nám bočí.
Pri káve záchrany
našli sme juany

ing. autorsky kolektiv

BCN IV

2008-06-22T14:28:00.000-07:00

Balíme sa pomaličky
"Nezabudni nohavičky!"
Roco má nový pršiplášť
nepoteší sa mu zvlášť
Mercado sa nám páčilo
slinky nám do úst tlačilo
miesto tibidaba
katka by kabelku rada
na informáciách sa čudovali
že sme už všetko obehali
Záhradu plnú ruží
naše srdce nájsť túži
máme však smolu
našli sme len starú školu
...BCN má jednu chybu
...ďaleko je do Madridu

Ing. koletivus

BCN III

2008-06-22T14:23:00.000-07:00

Vamos, vamos a la playa
spálime sa všetci traja
varíme si cestoviny
donesené z domoviny
Žerieme jak hladní vlci
snáď nebude guci guci
.....Barrio gotico Saške sa páči
.....aj do industrial parku náš vláči
.....tešíme sa na fontánu
.....nemajú tu vodu na ňu
.....na Monjuic sme pešo vyšli
..... fotky z neho pekné vzišli
Videli sme doky veľké
odfoťme ich Hansenovej - učiteľke
Kórejčania párty mali
vôbec sme sa nevyspali
Pozerám sa na hodinky
snívajú sa mi hovadinky

kolektív autoriek Ing.

BCN II

2008-06-21T15:44:00.000-07:00

Po polnoci smeti zbiera
nevyspí sa ani zviera
Ranné more, čistá pláž
pred dažďom sa neschováš
Zážitky z tapasu
sú plné trapasu
Úsmev plný sangrie
čierne kruhy zakryje
V parku malý ateliér
fotky sú super to mi ver
....Barcelona veľká mňamka
....tancujeme až do ránka
....Got 2 shots for free
....aj keď sme vlastne tri

ing kolektív

BCN 13.6.2008

2008-06-21T15:33:00.000-07:00

Upršaná Barcelona víta nás,
tešíme sa na tapas.
Zlodeji v polnočnom metre
strážime si už aj svetre.
Pomaranč je tajné heslo,
krádež by nám srdce neunieslo.
...........Prvý dojem v hosteli
...........je vŕzganie postelí
..........Raňajky - skromné, sladké
..........berieme maslo Katke.
Žralok na nás cerí zuby
slinka tečie z jeho huby
tuším sa mu Saška ľúbi.
Tučniak zasa Katku
Ďobal do jej zadku.

Lanovka nás vytrápila
nenašli sme žiadneho rýma
Z oblohy zmizli mraky
červené sme ani raky
Par guel a sagrada
nádherná paráda.

...........kolektív ing. autoriek :D

weeee aaareeee

2008-06-13T08:16:00.000-07:00

going to spain
hope it won´t rain
be back in 7 days
will have fun in million ways

:D

Dear World,

2008-06-10T14:33:00.000-07:00

leeeeeeeet me introduuuuuuuuuce youuuuuuuu

the most beautiful,

marvellous,

best shoes ever!!!

they are MY first NIKE shoes!!!

love them !!!!

I even had a bag which color fits to the not white color of them :D

What made my day today...

2008-06-04T15:06:00.000-07:00

1) I didn´t go to work... it felt good.. I don´t think this is the right attitude I have towards my work.. have to change this...
2) wonderful breakfast .. baguette with salad and cheese
3) finished list of slovak participants.. 35 of them going to Sweden ?? amazing :D
4) read this book from Maxim E.Matkin Muzske interiery. it really caught me!! amazing..love his writing, love the dialogues, the feeling almost like I was standing next to Lola !!!
5) went to school.. oooo so many nice memories.. nostalgia :D ... saw our writing.. I stood there for some seconds, wind playing with my hair, feeling sun at my face and smile... meeting students preparing for exams.. I smiled at them... cause I PASSED!! :D
6) that 70´s show series!! f u n n y :D
7) read the book:D I am over the half :( I don´t want it to end :D I really have feeling this is one of the book I want to read one more time .. cause I am reading it in hurry, cause I wanna know the plot.. :D
8) tomorrow gonna meet my teacher of flute
9) how could I forgot!! I have new songs of Avril Lavigne... Stefan THX!!
10) calling sis of my sis.. I was laughing
11) crazying with tomasssss
12) made calender of summer.. so far the June is kind of full but still I have time feel free to visit me :D
13) making new friend ? finally? :D

My book amazement

2008-06-03T08:18:00.000-07:00

I finished the book today (Partner John Grisham).
Yesterday I have like 30 pages left, but since I started late I was not able to finished it. so the book was at the table I was looking at it...all of a sudden I took it and go at the end to see how many pages are left. and I read the last 2 sentences..
"Where would he go? His story is at the end. History is closed. She will find him one day."
So I was sad. He dump her? For all she did for him, he left and she has to look for him? oooo why did I read it? Then I started to think detective stories should have special locker for the last pages for reason like this.
BUT!! today I really finished the book. And SHE dump HIM. She took all the money HE stole! Good girl:D noo it was pretty sad and it didn´t ended with happyend.
And I am so incredible amazed that the same sentence you can understand with different point of view. She will find him. Who got lost him or her? Amazed...

second story.
I was in a book store and I was wondering if I should buy one book so I opened it and read
Person:(to bus driver) can we make a stop? BD: Why? we will stop in Žilina. P: Cause John wants to throw up to grass. BD: Why he wants to throw up to grass? P: Cause so far he is throwing up to his jacket but it started dropping out already....
awful but it made me laugh.. So I bought the book
I just love Maxim E.Matkin... and I know his/her secret!!!

amazed...